ralli ja (teko)ruusu

new hair

pastel pink cardigan

ja kyllä, tatuointi on feikki

vanhat 2015

plants are beautiful

toivon yleensä monia asioita. 

joko ne ovat suuria tai pieniä asioita, niin kuin nämä:

"olisin kaunis"

"olisin laiha"

"osaisin kirjoittaa"

"osaisin rustailla runoja"

mutta koskaan en ole toivonut

"olisinpa onnellinen"

kasvit ovat kauniita, vaikka en niitä osaakkaan hoitaa. niitä on kiva katsella. aina vähän väilä, joskus ei ole aikaa.

AIN'T YOUTH MEANT TO BE BEAUTIFUL?

I DON'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL I JUST WANT TO BREAK THE RULES

Should I kill myself, or have a cup of coffee? - Albert Camus

“Some days I woke up and got out of bed and brushed my teeth like any normal human being; some days I woke up and lay in bed and looked at the ceiling and wondered what the hell the point was of getting out of bed and brushing my teeth like any normal human being.”

“If you know someone who’s depressed, please resolve never to ask them why. Depression isn’t a straightforward response to a bad situation; depression just is, like the weather. Try to understand the blackness, lethargy, hopelessness, and loneliness they’re going through. Be there for them when they come through the other side. It’s hard to be a friend to someone who’s depressed, but it is one of the kindest, noblest, and best things you will ever do.”

— Stephen Fry

me when i get killed:nice

“This sadness is taking over and I’m too tired to fight it.”

— Unknown

“The sadness will last forever.” — Vincent Van Gogh (suicide note)

anxiety is terrible, you could be having an attack and no one would even know because it’s an inward thing. it feels like you’re malfunctioning and you can’t process your own thoughts. you get a knot in your stomach and you can’t take a full breath but outwardly you can literally just sit there and look completely normal as long as no one tries to speak to you.

“I’m not sure this is a world I belong in anymore. I’m not sure that I want to wake up.” — Gayle Forman If I Stay

Things to do when the blank page daunts you:

* Put your MP3 player on shuffle. Draw a picture/illustrate the song or some of the songs’ lyrics.

"...and she fears everything..."

A Rose

a single rose

hangs on the wall

head facing down

alone and solemn

leaves in despair

petals all dead

but no one sees

until it drops

its beautiful petals

upon the floor

“I feel alone 

and I hate myself 

and I just want someone to look me in the eye and say

 ‘man the fuck up, things aren’t as bad as they seem’ 

but no one does because 

I am alone and they hate me too”

— 1:06am

“when you photograph people in colour, you photograph their clothes. but when you photograph people in black and white, you photograph their souls.”

Tuntuu typerältä kirjoittaa taas tänne, vaikka mikään ei ole muuttunut. Eikun hetkinen onhanpas! Mut päästettiin pois osastolta ns. ''pidennetylle lomalle'', mutta sain silti ottaa kaikki tavarani mukaan. En saanu edes hyvästellä omahoitajaa, enkä rakasta korvaavaahoitajaa Oon siis nyt viikon kotona ja tulevana perjantaina meen lääkärinkäynnille ja katotaan miten on menny. Ja mähän palaan sinne. Mä en oo vielä valmis ns. ''normiin''. Eli että kävisin koulua normaalisti ja yms.

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